New Beginnings.

It has been months since I've posted here. My semester turned in to the craziest three months of my life, and also the most amazing. I'm now just a few days away from a Spring Semester that holds an internship specifically designed for me, as well as four classes I'm so thrilled to take that I can barely contain myself.

Sometime in November, I sat at one of my coffee dates with Michelle and she said to me that she wanted to see me get involved in Student Affairs. Technically, this is where her job lies - she is the Office of Student Involvement Manager on our campus, and her boss is the Vice-Chancellor of Student Affairs. I hesitated at first, for Student Affairs had never really been on my radar, but I realized (after a weekend in Powell's Books reading books about student affairs and thinking) that the things I am most passionate about: getting students involved, making sure other people feel like they fit in, wanting to see the apathy of my generation go away; all of these things fit pretty well in Student Affairs. So I sat down with Michelle and we designed an internship to get me to learn more about Student Affairs.

In all honesty, I'm both excited and terrified (isn't that always how it is?). I'm really interested in learning more about Student Affairs as a career, but I'm afraid that my tendency to over-commit is going to hurt me a lot. Mostly, I'm afraid that I will let Michelle down, and I don't think that I could live with myself if that were to happen. The more I think about it, the more scared I get, so I try not to think about it, but the fear is still there.

Also happening this semester, besides my very first Creative Writing course ever, which I am incredibly excited for, is me figuring out what happens next. Technically, I could graduate in May. All I would have to do is fill out the paperwork - but I'm not ready. I'm not satisfied with the degree that I would be getting, and I don't feel like my time at my university is done, so I'll be working this semester on what that means. I think I've got an idea of what it means, but I'm not completely sure yet.

All in all, the entire semester is going to be full of new starts. The student government election also happens, and as campaign manager for the best ticket out there, there will be a lot going on in my life. Hopefully, come May, I'll be as satisfied with this semester as I am with the last one.