Earlier today, while watching Julie & Julia, I thought that maybe I needed a goal. A tangible one. I mean, I have "Get good grades," "don't screw up your internship," and "don't waste time," but I thought that I should have something tangible. Finish something, write a novel; keep a blog - I didn't know, but I was damn sure I needed one.
And then I realized that those goals are probably enough. That maybe it was enough to work on bringing my GPA up to a 2.75, and to make sure that I made it through the Student Affairs Internship without embarrassing myself - maybe they are enough.
I've always expected too much of myself. "Too much" might be the wrong phrase. I have high standards for myself, and when I don't meet those standards I feel as if I have failed. And yet, most of the time there really is success in there somewhere. I don't want to lower my standards - I appreciate that in most aspects of my life my standards are high. I just wish I could learn to see the successes when I get to the end and haven't reached that highest of standards.
I decided to think about this semester and my current goals before trying to set a new one. So, in honor of full disclosure:
- Classes:
- Succeed (and by this I mean get at least a 'C,' if not much higher) in "Leadership Skills for the Public Sector," a Political Science class that I took my first semester at WSU-Vancouver and had to drop out of;
- Bring my GPA up to a 2.75 so that I can be certified as a Public Affairs Major;
- Be proud of each and every paper that I write (and there are a number of them).
- Internship:
- Be ahead of the game. This means:
- Be finished with the readings each member of the SA Management Team has given me before I go in to their office;
- Have questions prepared for each interview that I do.
- Plan my time accordingly, particularly when it comes to Recruitment and Retention programs that I will be involved in;
- Ask for help
- Remember that this in an internship and it is okay to still be learning;
- Remember that, though I am learning, I am working with professionals, and asking for help is better than wasting their time.
- Student Government:
- Fulfill my job duties:
- Three office hours a week;
- Senate meeting minutes mailed out on time;
- Sponsor bills and by-law amendments.
- Attend one ASWSUV Event per month.
- The ONE Campaign
- Event focused on Women in Poverty;
- Finish out the year strong with the Campus Challenge.
- Campaigning
- Properly delegate to my team;
- Make sure the candidates communicate exactly what they want to the Student Body;
- WIN.
On top of all of this, I don't think I could take another goal. It's good for me to recognize this, though my inner overachiever is telling me to take on one more thing. I won't though, except for this:
- Remembrance:
- One photograph a day
- One line a day in the "One Line A Day" Journal I received from Michelle for Christmas
- One blog per day
- One letter to Audrey per week
These items of remembrance will help me to document this semester, and my life - I'm tired of not remembering the good things and only focusing on the bad. It has hindered my growth as an adult, and I'm ready to let myself grow.
Hopefully I will finally be able to use this blog the way that I wanted to - as a way for me to look back on my time at WSU-Vancouver and as a young adult and see that I have succeeded - even if I missed one or two of the "high standard" goals.
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